Wednesday, 16 July 2014
“Are you already in a relationship at this age?” My eyes wandered around the class. And they spotted this girl with wide white hijab, smiling shyly. And her friends started teasing her.
Having the experience of being in a relationship which is actually illegal in Islam, I started sharing. I told them that this girlfriend-boyfriend thingy in their early age is not good and a waste of time. I told them that why waste your time being in love and then being jealous of someone who is technically not yours, being disappointed and other stuff while you can actually enjoy your youth doing lots of beneficial things that you may proud of 5 years from now.
And the girl with wide hijab started talking. She said that being in a relationship is like knowing each other. So I said, in Islam we have engagement. We can get to know each other during that. She said that it is for her own good. They discuss about their study when they are on phone. So I told her to ask her friends or go to the staff room. She said that her friends can’t help and she sometimes doesn't have the time to consult the teachers. She kept giving excuses and reasons why what she is doing right now is right. She reminded me of me. I was just like her. Very much confident that he is mine and we will be together. And finally ended up crying for almost a year and went crazy for two years.
So yeah, I need help. Should I or should I not interfere with my students’ love life? I just don’t want them to end up like me. Being disappointed and is now very afraid to fall in love again. They are innocence teenagers whom are trying to figure out their identities that they may fall to anything they believe in. Maybe it is good for them to experience fall and rise. But why love? Why not other things? I know the feeling of falling in love is not planned. We just fall. But we can control how we manage the feeling, can’t we?
Ohhh. Maybe I am being so prejudice here. Oh please help.
p.s menyesal tak ikut cakap orang tua-tua yang lebih dulu makan garam.
To those who have been reading my entries since I first published one, you must know that I studied education in university. Hence, I am now a degree holder in education, specifically TESL. I’m not that very good in English. So why the hell I become an English teacher jeopardising all innocent youngster who come to school to study??!!, you may ask. Cool man. That’s just me being modest. That’s very rare I think you should acknowledge it. If any of my friends see those words I just typed, they’ll be overwhelming knowing that I know how to be modestly modest.
Yarghhh. Astaghfirullah. What was that?!
Frankly speaking, I’m not as good as others in English. I still wonder why people can talk without hesitation in English. I maybe lack in confidence when it comes to my English. But don’t worry. I won’t jeopardise our students. I will try my best. I will try my VERY BEST.
Oh. I just got posted! So now I am officially a teacher. I don’t want to just teach them how to score A in exam. I want to touch their heart, guiding them to know the importance of English language in nowadays mad world. And some other stuffs. I want them to have fun. I want them to unleash the kids inside them so that they would write better essay with wild imagination.
I teach form 4 and form 5 students. Age between 16 to 17 year old. How am I going to get them writing with passion??
Meanwhile, I’m going to brush up my English.